JK

i'm growing dependent upon the things i thought i had finished
refusing and healed from already
i healed so long ago i forgot they scarred me in the first place
it's all pre-Mediterranean civilization
it's all trace fossils and charred ceramics

the problem is
me
the trouble never arrives as
tulips or daffodils
when it revisits me
even before it's over
it's always as
ash
and
ash
and ash

the problem is
i won't
the problem is
i refuse to see